Monday, September 2812:52 AM
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I was overjoyed
for i finally got my grant approved.
though it din come easy, n i must say it was
really by sheer luck dat i gt it..
long story, but nonetheless, it feels good
that someone really appreciates and anticipates
wad i will be coming up with next.
frankly speaking, i do feel stagnant and lonely in this route
im embarking on sometimes.
like theres only myself against the world outside.
i always thought be it art or designing, its a one-sided thingy
just doing what i like and designing wad i want , thats all.
but now i realised it isnt bad to share all these with others afterall.
convincing others to like and understand wad im doing sounds
appealing finally.
i know i need to face the world one day once my label is launched.
im dreading it so much but i know reality comes before a dream-come-true.
theres so much for me to overcome n its difficult i must say.
but i will face it head on.
becos i need a CHANGE.
seriously.
anw, after getting the grant, i really need to start on my designs
and drafting already. just 1 mth for me to complete 5 outfits for
the fashion show in Nov.tight schedule really..but thank god,
i got a good mentor, i hope i wun disappoint him and all those who
support me=)
btw, the fashion show day clashed with angel's grad concert larh!!!
sickening!!i hope the time wun clashed!(most likely will..haiz =X)
this gonna be the first time i am not attending.
its sth i will anticipate every year..sadsadsadsadsad..
this make me feel its really time for me to leave Angel.
i know ive been saying i wanna leave and go concentrate on my fashion
design career..but end up iam back working at the childcare again.
its not the working environment dat im clinging on to (i do enjoy though),
its the interactions with the kids dats pulling me back.all the while.
i really treasured the moments spent with them.
tsk.i know im being contradicting here..cos i said i need a change earlier on.
haiz.i will be leaving for sure but
its gonna be DIFFICULT and SAD...
tsktsktsktsktsktsk..
off to bed.
